All it takes is a water droplet to cause a wave and that is something that I cannot shake. This month I have seen the end and beginning of new chapters of my life from a relationship coming to a close to the most exciting news I could possibly receive - I finally start college this Autumn! The past three weeks have been spent spiraling to come out of that Depression and read that news? I'm ecstatic! Twelve years ago I graduated from high school unsure of what I would do with my life If I were going to have a life at all to live. I immediately began working, telling myself I would save up to travel, get an apartment, and start college - everything was being planned out and budgeted. At 19 years old, though, that at-home pregnancy test came back positive and all of those plans were thrown down the drain. According to my family, my life was now over and I had to live every second of the rest of my life for my child. Never myself. While it is true, that I must live for my child, what they had wrong was that I can live my life for myself as well. A parent doesn't have to choose one over the other. That took almost a decade to come to the realization.
So, this year is the beginning of a new chapter!
It's scary yet exciting all at the same time. It's going to be tough, there will be sleepless nights, and days where I'm purely running on caffeine but, I know that it will all be worth it. From my children's perspective, they're not as excited. It's understandable! My eldest believes this means I'll be attending college parties and won't be home often while my youngest wants to ensure he'll continue to have "nuggies" at home after school.
All of this to say, there are going to be huge gaps between each entry. I still want to go over Depp V Heard, as it has been a mess since the trial ended in Johnny's favor. And there is so much going on within our government that deserves to have a continuous spotlight. Right now, the next month will be spent preparing myself and my children for the upcoming school year.
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